Dear Hansley a.k.a rocker boy,

Why are you still waiting? Or rather, what are you waiting for? Its always been a here without you remember? First loves can't withstand the distance plus, you keep doing a diasppaearing act on me. I can't handle it when you suddenly disappear and leave me worrying and going crazy. And you don't have the right to go mad when there's someone in my life now. I gave up waiting after seven months. After you fucked up your life and got your ass thrown into jail. Maybe things would be better if we just kept the memories of the times we had together and forget all the nights where I cried over the phone while you were hundreds of miles away from me. It was a wondefully bittersweet experience and I can't hear some songs without thinking of you. I can't hear some songs without remembering the times we spent under the moonlit sky and not think of how you looked like holding your guitar and singing while you looked at me as if I meant so much to you. Anyway, you're moving to Brazil soon and things are just going to be so much harder. You promised to come here to be with me but you never did. I'll be your friend and your first love but I can't see the future and whatever happens next depends on you.

Yours lovingly,
your first love

breathe // dream

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