The systems failed, all the circuits blown, and the message lost in this machine
Tried all the codes, all possibilities, all combinations, but still nothing

You want to know how I'm feeling right now? I feel like someone just took my heart, threw it on the floor, smashed it into fairy dust and the wind blew it all away.

Called for backup from my assistants but no one seems to know anything
Disconnect, shut the main reactor down, and separate from this technology

It was just another day. Sitting at Starbucks and having Vietnamese food for lunch. Then, I learn that you had been cheating on me.

I tried, you know I tried, I tried
Hard as it may be I know you should be with me
Even though it seems its all lies
I still believe you should be with me

All this time, you always told me that you had no time for me. Your work came first, then your family. Then your car and basketball. I never ranked high on your priority list but I took it all. You saw me less than four times a month but I tried my best to understand. People told me I was being a fool, that you were definitely cheating on me but I stood by you because I trusted in you. I always asked you out but you never had time and now I have to learn that you're trying to get into someone else's pants. Its no wonder when I talked to you yesterday and suggested we take a break from each other, you finally say alright. You've found someone else. When I used to bring it up, you always objected but now there's someone else to fuck, you don't care anymore. I'm such an idiot. You were just looking for a replacement before you agreed.

I don't think I'll find the love I want
The love I'm searching for so desperately

I always thought that you were it. I mean, you're the first guy I've committed to in four years. You're the first one I said i love you to. All these time, you could have been cheating on me but I've been too blind to notice. I've been just happy when you finally call me out. Like the beggar at the street corner, I take whatever you give me.

I tried, you know I tried, I tried
Hard as it may be I know you should be with me

Baby, when I heard from someone else what you've been doing, I couldn't help it but cry and cry. How could you turn me down whenever I ask you out and tell her that I never want to go out with you? How could you ask her to Zouk on Tuesday and when I ask you on Wednesday, you say you don't want people there to see you on crutches?

Even though it seems its all lies
I still believe you should be with me

You know what makes things worst? I'm just pretending that nothing's wrong. And something worst than that? I hate myself that I still love you and want to be with you.

The Rentals, The Love I'm Searching For

breathe // dream

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